The tohu we need

When you can’t hear the sounds of your tupuna they have to opt to send louder signals

This happened to me last night ...

I’ve been sitting with a decision that has me completely torn though I know in two months time I will wonder why it was such a big deal.

Essentially, I haven’t been backing myself. Instead, I’ve just been moving around and around the decision, whilst avoiding the obvious answer. 

Constantly circulating the issue, I have ended up taking up other people’s time and resources trying to figure it out, when in fact it is only me who can do so.

At its heart it is about me not acknowledging the changes that I need to make for me to truly enter this next era. 

You see I have reached a plateau in my Poutama

And I have a steep climb ahead for me to reach the next.

That climb will allow me to leave some of the weight I’ve been carrying behind, 

and elevate myself to a phase that I know has been waiting for me for so long.

I have been sent opportunities, but haven’t fully stepped into the realm in which they live, and for that I was placed within this mental turmoil and wonder about which direction I should go.

However, I in fact do know which direction it is, it is so obvious now, but it is the fear of not being functionally sound that keeps me circulating.

 

But then last night I had a visitor ...

A tauhou- a waxeye (bird)

It crossed my path within our living room, which startled both myself and my husband as it was well past sunset.

It allowed me to get so close that I could touch its soft feathers, but then it flew and sat on the top of our door.

It was calm and I wanted to assist it to leave, but it instead it positioned itself where I could sit in relaxed position to view.

When a waxeye, a bird defined by migration, community, and the white ring of clear sight, visits calmly during a period of heavy decision-making, it acts as a striking spiritual mirror.

It’s message - be brave enough to place the period of time ahead of you for yourself.

It reminded me I am being watched over, that clarity is coming to my doubt, and I am being prepared to welcome a beautiful "new arrival" and also a significant shift in my life’s path

Another mokopuna on the way, and the need for me to step fully into my own position.

It reminded me that it crossed an entire ocean to find its purpose, as they only found our shores of Aotearoa in the 1800’s

A reminder to trust the horizon, expand my boundaries, and allow the major opportunities, and connections into your life 

Waxeyes do not survive or travel alone; they rely entirely on the strength of their tightly knit flock. 

The waxeye’s calm presence was a reassurance that leaning fully into my global community is safe, necessary, and spiritually supported.

The waxeye arrived without fear to show me that I am ready for a larger horizon.

So, Canada, you now get to hold me for a full month and my community I will let you know where I land.

I have listened and am now ready to fly.